You know when you're doing something really fun and you take a second to think that whatever you're doing won't last forever and its only a matter of time before it ends, and then you shake it off because you're trying to enjoy each and every moment? That's been my thought process over the last month. I passed my year anniversary in the UK on the 14th of July. Oddly enough, I wasn't even in the UK. I was in Chernobyl. Yes, I was wondering around the site of one of the most dangerous radioactive accidents in history. Before that I was in Barcelona. So far, 2019 has brought me to Ireland, Northern Ireland, Scotland, Greece, Spain and Ukraine. In September I'll be headed to Italy, and who knows after that where I'll end up? Living in the UK has spoilt me in terms of travel, which I'm trying to take advantage of because I don't know whether I'll come back here to live.
I came to the UK to travel and act. Obviously, I've been doing a lot of the former. I've been submitting myself to castings and trying to take initiative, but my motivation has shifted. Ever since I produced my film "Sugar," I've had this urge to continue to make my own work. Over the last few months I've been taking writing more seriously and have gotten good headway into the feature for "Sugar," as well as some other film projects I have in mind. Furthermore, I started writing a novel, and have really gotten back into writing poetry. Prior to "Sugar," I never thought I could make a career in writing, but it does make sense. Its been one of those things I've enjoyed since I was young. I still love acting, but I want to focus on acting in the work I write and produce.
Whether I stay in the UK or not is largely dependant on this altered career path. It would make sense to stay in Toronto to produce my own work, largely because I already have connections there and to go through another UK visa process would be expensive. However, there's this burning inside me that doesn't want to go back. As cliché as it sounds, I feel at home here. With less than one year left, I'm trying not to think about the inevitability of me having to leave London. I just need to enjoy this last year as much as I can.